When I worked as a telecommunications analyst for a bank in New York City, I was a divorced single mom working hard to raise and financially support my two children. While dating, I accidentally became pregnant. I did not want to have an abortion, but could find no other way out, since I needed to keep my job (which I couldn’t do while having to take care of a baby) so I could support the children I already had.
Before I went to the hospital for the abortion, I grieved for the little life within me that would never see the light of day. I felt it was a girl and gave her a name: "Sara."
That morning, in the hospital, the nurse prepared me, put me on a gurney and wheeled me into a room adjacent to the operating room. I was there for about 20 minutes by myself, crying my eyes out, and praying for a solution. I appealed to Saint Jude: "Please help me! I don't want to do this, but I have to; there is no way out!" If I lost my job, I would be homeless with two small children and no father for this third one on the way, since the man I was dating didn't want our child. In agony, I prayed to the Archangel Metatron, guardian of the matrix, and pleaded with him to help me.
Heaven answered by sending an angel to me. Although there were no electric lights in the room (just daylight), I saw a brilliant ball of white light appear in the corner of the room. Through my tears, I raised my head to the ceiling to look at it, and then I heard two words spoken to me clearly: "Baptize her."
And so, I made the sign of the cross over my baby and said: "I baptize thee 'Sara,' in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen. I promise to come back for you someday." Then I commended her little spirit to be entrusted to care of the Archangel Metatron and Saint Jude.
Four years later, I miraculously conceived against all odds, (as I had a previous mini stroke, and was advised not to ever have a baby because of the medication I was on); and I gave birth to a healthy, beautiful, red-haired, brown eyed, baby girl, and named her "Sara."
Sara is a beautiful young woman now -- pure, inside and out, touched by God's love, and I am so proud of her.